I am asking you as a reader to read it all before you
judge my past years. I will admit now that I was shellfish, rude, arrogant and
stupid for a long time, but read it before you judge.
2010
In 2010 my parents had been split for 2 years and I was
missing the attention I was use to, being spoilt and always had attention
showered on me this was a HUGE change and my spoilt little self wasn't dealing,
school, work and the boyfriend at the time was never enough to fill my time I
was always left with no personal time that I could just grab a cold drink and
play playstation until all hours. I soon found a book called "the promise
of wolves" reading this book I made time for the book and it opened my
eyes to the word and realities of different books, my passion was lit. The attention
I was missing I soon found in books. I worked harder and longer on weekends,
started spending less time getting home from school and the boyfriend and I
ended it because his father didn't approve of my life plans. (apparently owning
a bookstore makes you a low life) I didn't care, I had my parents, friends and
books. I soon became selfish with books, my friends could never get my attention
no matter what was happening in the world I didn't care for their issues or
pains or about them pretty much. I was
selfish, rude and arrogant (many more words).
2011
The start of 2011 was no different to the end of 2010 I
was still the same person it was just a different year. I quit school because
it took up to much of my time and signed up to do a diploma of Business that I
am still working on (I'll explain later) and one day I met this guy, we became inseparable,
we loved spending time together and I turned against my family because they didn't
approve of him. I was stupid and moved in with him because I was in love, he
was my everything thing. He wanted to move to a town 6 hours away and I said
yes because growing up is a mighty big adventure I thought I was ready to take
with him. I spent the last months of
2011 in love and so happy I was ready to make this my permanent life.
2012
I lost who I was in 2012, every part of my life was about
him. If he didn't like my clothes I would change them, he didn't like a friend I
would lose them at the time I didn't see what was happening. He was turning
into the guy everyone had warned me about, he started the mental and verbal abuse
that would sometimes turn violent the he started to cheat and party while I was
not allowed to do anything, I had 2 female friends at this time that would stay
with me as there men were the same just not violent, I tried to leave twice but
he always promised he would changed because he loved me. I was 10 long and distant hours away from my
family at this point, my family don't know any of this yet because I haven't
been brave enough to tell them. He started drinking more than normal, partying
harder and then started to experiment with the drugs. This was the third time I
was trying to leave but this time I rang my family and told them I was leaving
him and I had all the help I needed, Christmas Eve I was with my family once
again. Waking up surrounded by family was the best Christmas EVER! I was safe,
free and loved.
2013
I celebrated my life, my freedom and my future with my
family on new year's day, I pledged myself to my new year's resolution to stay
away from guys like him, I swore I would make a list of resolutions and I did
they were:
Volunteer in a community group (State Emergency Services)
Support my aunts involvement with charity (CysticFibrosis, I Work Event Management)Own over 500 books (640 At this moment in time)
Sign up to Tafe ( I have completed a cert 4 in admin finance)
Get my own house (it looks more like cottage)
Get a full time job (I work as a manufacture)
Buy a Car (I named my 2002 Toyota, Buzz)
I forgot the rest.
Now it is September when I am writing this I am still single and working through the night mares of my past relationship with him, I work with the SES (state emergency services) and work a full time job, also I am an even manager for Benz Bandit Rally Car 560. The defence force reserves has my name on it so I plan to start training soon so there is still time for all my other commitments. Every day I wake up a see how lucky I was to have my family support and how we all support each other. I have the best life I have made for myself and I love my family and friends. I made the change I needed and with the help of my family I saved myself.
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